What Does Love Look Like?

 

 I'm writing to you this Valentine's Day from a cruise ship docked in Puerto Caldera, Costa Rica. I was supposed to be on a shore excursion called Real Coffee, Chocolate and Sarchi today exploring a coffee plantation, sampling their wares, learning about Sarchi and hand painted ox carts and having a local luncheon. But instead, I'm sitting in the lovely and comfortable Observation Lounge on the ship typing on my computer. Why? I'm just not 100%. As my husband pointed out, I'm never 100%, but I mean my 100%. For you that might be 60% or even 40%, but I'm trying to say I'm not at my best. I'm looking very much forward to visiting family in Panama City in two days and then transiting the Panama Canal, and I don't want to miss either of those for not having taken care of myself beforehand. 
 It was a difficult decision for me because I was looking forward to the shore excursion too. We had also invested in it, it was not cheap, and you have to cancel 48 hours in advance for a refund. I hate being wasteful. As I prayerfully weighed the pros and cons in our cabin at 6:30 this morning, my husband made sure to chime in with, "Do not make this decision based on money." But how can you not? I mean, even if that is not the deciding factor, its reality doesn't just disappear from your mind.
 Ultimately, my decision came down to wanting to be well for Panama and feeling like I was moving through Jello already. I'm not sure I would have made it through the shore excursion well and may have had to sit it out on the bus, much less comfortable than this Observation Lounge!
 How did my husband take it? He is my champion! He supported me fully, pivoted in his packing and put together things for us to sit and relax like computers and games, and accompanied me to a casual breakfast with Valentine's Day highlights in the Garden Cafe.

 

Here's the Thing: My husband has gotten very good at telling me he loves me, and I really appreciate that, but I know he loves me by how he puts me first, never complains or makes me feel bad when we have to miss things, and always looks out for me. I am so very blessed to have him in my life and I thank God for him every day. Happy Valentines Day, Sweetheart!




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  1. valFebruary 14, 2025 at 11:29 PM

    You have a wonderful husband…..and he has a pretty great wife as well!! ❤️🥰❤️

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  2. AnonymousFebruary 15, 2025 at 2:06 AM

    I'm so glad you have each other. You created such a wonderful family together. Despite all the tribulations it's been a life done well.

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